Miriam 47 – How many times have I used, dear Andre, the example of a butterfly’s flap to explain how an almost insignificant little event may be the beginning of a series of events that, as in a domino, chase each other and collide until they cause something else absolutely unexpected, on the other side of the world. I’ve always believed it, but never completely.
How many times have I applied this same example to my daily life, wondering if things would have gone the same way if I had found myself in a certain place on a certain day, or if I had said a word rather than another.
I talk about it today, in my diary, because now I feel that the time has come to start pulling the strings: I see that the plot is forty-seven days long – and is full of events – although we were all stuck in our homes. Life, coincidences, destiny: none of this has stopped, creating new dynamics that now we don’t fully understand. Time will give us the real meaning of these months, that meaning that belongs to all of us but, at the same time, transcends individual events and individual lives. The meaning of survival, of sickness, of change, of death, of rediscovery, of loss. The meaning of responsibility, of nostalgia, of uncertainty.
The meaning of every single diary of this blog.
We will find a meaning, but it won’t happen in a striking way. It will be a small seed that will sprout in each of us, with different times and ways, and that each of us will discover as soon as they want to.
There is a meaning also in the absolute nonsense of all this. I believe it.
Andrea 47 – A meaning. Or a consequence. I’ve just finished a meeting where we wondered about what goes beyond consequences. What arrives and occurs, during an event, is a consequence, but what settles is what has a meaning, because it remains. Like not carrying liquids on a plane after 9/11, a consequence that makes sense when it reduces certain dangers. It will be a negative consequence to watch our savings getting used up, but that will make sense when we will understand how to secure our activities from random events. It will be a consequence to remain locked up in our homes a little longer, but this will have made sense when we will understand how to react to these pandemics with a temporary lockdown even in the future and we will get used to it. It will have been a consequence shopping online, it will have made sense when we will have a more widespread and articulate delivery services, when we come back to what’s “normal”. It will have been a consequence to rearrange the spaces in the house, it will have made sense to live and talk with our children more, and to adapt the space in our house to their needs. It will have been a consequence taking online lessons when all the children that cannot go to school will have access to remote education. It will have been a consequence to put our medical and research centres under stress, it will make sense when we will understand that cuts to healthcare and research services must not be made. It will have been a consequence to start writing a blog or a diary, it will make sense when we reread this Book. We want to find a meaning to this condition, even if there is no meaning.